in London :)

well, today is my fourth day in London. I arrived on Friday…with no luggage, which was wonderful! My bag finally came late last night, man 3 days here without my stuff was frustrating but I’m in London = woot!!!

I finally got to see WICKED!!!!! It was soooo ridiculously good. My eyes were wide open and my face hurt from smiling. It was absolutely wonderful!

Today has been pretty stellar so far. I’ve been really lucky since I’ve been here because the weather has been relatively pleasant. The sun was out and I was actually sweating a little bit…well, I know that’s not a real surprise but hooray for really nice weather. I’m sitting in an internet cafe in Chinatown in London…sounds a little weird but hey I’ve been walking around London all day and it has been wonderful. My back hurts and I’m developing shin splints from doing all that walking in flip flops, but it has been well worth it Things that I’ve done/seen today: Buckingham Palace (while there was a huge band of royal guards playing and parading around this morning) St. James’ Park, Trafalgar Square, the National Gallery (loved the Monets, Van Goghs, Seurats, Renoirs, Degas) Big Ben, Westminster Abbey, walked by the London Eye, Chinatown, Leicester Square. It’s been a wonderful day.

I also accidentally walked through this one area of Leicester square that was blocked off for something special for the premier of “Dark Knight” oops. There were tons of people behind these gates with Dark Knight posters everywhere, people with cameras, the press, all this media stuff. I tried going through to get around, but I walked into the open area where only people with passes and all that other stuff were allowed. But hey, if you act like you know what you are doing nobody really yells at you

It’s been a great day so far and I look forward to venturing around the city even more

…I also have a whole new appreciation for being a Yank bring it on Brits

WOOT!

I’VE GOT A LITTLE JOBBY GUY!!!!

I’M GOING TO BE A TEACHER!!

I’m going to be teaching 9th grade Bible at the same school where I am coaching volleyball.  Craziness.

Hey God, there you go again always being faithful…every single time…despite my worrying and doubting.  Great is your faithfulness despite everything I do and everything I am

debilitating emotions

It’s crazy to me how often emotions can completely become paralyzing.  I hate how emotions like fear and uncertainty even lead me to doubt and not trust the Lord.  Also when relationships with others aren’t completely right it seems as if there is this fog over everything else… oh wait, yeah, that sounds familiar, especially when it comes to my relationship with Christ.

The past two weeks just have been rough emotionally.  I have my interview tomorrow at Covenant to teach 9th grade Bible.  The confidence that I had in the fact that I could get it and God will equip me and wherever I’m inadequate He will be more than sufficient, is gone.  Learning how to be in relationship with someone for the first time is hard, really hard.  I feel like I totally suck at that one.  My mom is in Japan visiting family, and I miss her alot.  Being in Charlottesville without a steady job or without being a Fellow anymore is weird.  Oh goodness I miss camp.  It’s funny because I didn’t think that I would miss it as much as I really do.  I miss my friends.  Melissa, Kenny, Matty, Breza, Allie, Elisa, Amanda.  It sucks soooo much.

I guess I just feel really alone right now.  I know, I know, I’m not truly alone.  But it’s hard when that isn’t right either.  I just feel like I’m taking up space.  I hate it.  Blah blah blah, I know this will pass.  But it’s just hard right now.

Lord give me the strength for today and a hope for tomorrow.