yesterday morning

Yesterday morning every part of her just shut down
Getting out of bed never felt so difficult before
Every step she took led to the wrong direction
And she never made it out her door

Yesterday morning Jamie yielded to all she hates
But if she despises it so much why did she give in
Seems like this battle just can’t be won
And she’s stuck there alone again.

She said I’m so sick of this stumble, stumble that I’ve been calling a walk
And so I’m tired of the mumble, mumble that I’ve described as a talk
And now I guess its time I lose myself
To the one who found me here, who found me here

Yesterday morning every part of her just shut down
and All that she knew or thought she knew flew out the door
Things she loves so easily forgotten
Now Jamie can’t love no more

She said I’m so sick of this stumble, stumble that I’ve been calling a walk
And so I’m tired of the mumble, mumble that I’ve described as a talk
And now I guess its time I lose myself
To the one who found me here
Found me here, found me, found me here

reminders are good…

Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take
Reminding us how far we’ve come
Let the pain burn away from our hearts
We have time to start all over again

Well if you would shine your love down here
Oh make our hearts as perfect as new
Oh if you would shine your love down here

Oh I promise I’ll reflect it right back at you
Oh I promise I’ll reflect it right back at you
Oh I promise we’ll reflect it right back at you

rain

Patty Griffin…quite fitting for how I’ve felt lately…

It’s hard to listen to a hard hard heart
beating close to mine
pounding up against the stone and steel
walls that I won’t climb
sometimes a hurt is so deep deep deep
you think that you’re gonna drown
sometimes all I can do is weep weep weep
with all this rain falling down

strange how hard it rains now
rows and rows of big dark clouds
when I’m holding on underneath this shroud
rain

its hard to know when to give up the fight
two things you want will just never be right
its never rained like it has to night before
now I don’t wanna beg you baby
for something maybe you could never give
I’m not looking for the rest of your life
I just want another chance to live

strange how hard it rains now
rows and rows of big dark clouds
when I’m holding on underneath this shroud
rain

strange how hard it rains now
rows and rows of big dark clouds
when I’m still alive underneath this shroud
rain rain rain

Imagination

While I was driving back to Cville today, I was thinking about a lot of things all at once.  I listened to this Bethany Dillon song and it kind of just brought back into focus some things in my life that I may have forgotten or just not paid much attention to.  It made me cry, so I obviously have some things going on that need to be worked out and need to be transformed by grace…

I need to be reminded of who I was
When I took my first steps out the door
All I said now follows me around
I’m reminded I’m not like that anymore

I uprooted and miles behind me
Are the faces and the home I love
You’ve brought to my attention
I’m slowly changing and becoming
What I wanted to stop

Isn’t that just like a finite mind
Setting out with such righteous indignation
But now I’m at your feet
Could you look at me with some imagination

The bush before me, I slip my sandals off
I only stopped to look
In the depths of the sea, in the midst of a great storm
I run, I run from you

Isn’t that just like a finite mind
Setting out with such righteous indignation
But now I’m at your feet
Could you look at me with some imagination

So remind me why you woke me up
And why you wake me every morn
The staff in my hand
Held in by your love
Just stay close, stay close

Because I know my own mind
I set out with righteous indignation
But when I’m at your feet
Please look at me with some imagination
With some imagination

Everyday

“Everyday” – This Providence

Everyday I wake up and hear you whisper my name,
Maybe breathe a little prayer but it just ain’t the same,
Ignoring every word you say,
Every word when you tell me.

Whoa be still,
Just stay still,
Whoa be still,
But oh God.

Everybody’s got something for me to do,
And my head’s filled with thoughts of everything but you,
‘Cause I never listen to anything you say,
And I fall in submission to everything but you everyday.

I go to your house and fall on my knees,
The very next morning and cry out please,
Would you take this life I call my own?
Would you let your house become my home?

Whoa be still,
Just stay still,
Whoa be still,
Oh Jesus.

Everybody’s got something for me to do,
And my head’s filled with thoughts of everything but you,
‘Cause I never listen to anyything you say,
And I fall in submission to everything but you everyday, yeah.

Everyday, everyday, everyday

Everybody’s got something for me to do,
And my head’s filled with thoughts of everything but you,
‘Cause I never listen to anything you say,
And I fall in submission to everything but you everyday.

i celebrate the day

this is one of the best Christmas songs everrrrrrr!…Breza I know you posted this too, but I gotta share the goodness as well!!

With this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know
How much You’ve touched my life because
Here is where You’re finding me
In the exact same place as New Year’s Eve
And from the lack of my persistency
We’re less than half as close as I wanna be

And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did you realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that You opened your eyes
Did you realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I’ll compare
The things I’ve felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me
And the hope that
That You give
That You were born so I might really live
To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me…

And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And I
I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day
Pray for You to save my life
Pray for You to save my life
Pray for You to save my life

our boys wrote us a song

our “Fellas” planned a night for us to show us how much they love and appreciate us…all complete with a song as well…it made me feel like I was back in college with the amazing job my boys did showing the girls that they cared about us.

I dig these guys so stink-freakin much!!!

Check out this swoon action…Sean, Reynolds, Lewis, Tripp, Mike, and Isaiah

like blood like honey

You want to catch your breath you want to get out
But as you surface you don’t really know how
How to live upon the solid ground
Sometimes it’s easier to let yourself drown

Love is
Thick like
Blood like
Honey

You cannot spell it out there are no words
Mrs johnson never taught me those verbs
On how to give myself and how to receive
It is something that’s inside of you and me

Love is
Thick like
Blood like
Honey

Forget everything you ever learned
No one listens when you want to be heard
Just bleed the bittersweet

Seven sunrises and seven more nights
You’d think that we could learn to do it right
If nothing changes then i’m gonna stop
But do i really have a choice?
I think not

Love is
Thick like
Blood like
Honey